My name is Becky Rich and this is, in a nutshell, how I was introduced to Kundalini and the grand entrance it made into my existence.
How my life has has changed!! I am married, two children, two cats: the typical suburban mom. Then one day in June it all changed. Since that faithful day, I have never been the same as before. I am different, same personality but different. I have changed tremendously.
I am not religious per say, I don't attend any religious organizations, but I do have an intense Love for God. I did not follow or read any Eastern philosophies and I am not ashamed to say I didn't even know what a guru did, I still don't. My religious background began in Southern Spain in a Roman Catholic Convent. So in my understanding I am pretty typical of an ex-Catholic living a normal life, or what is normally considered normal.
In March of 2007 I had this incredible urge to get as many self help books as possible. I even had an entire collection of Jane Roberts' Seth Books delivered to my present address in Germany. I read ravenously over 10 books in less than a two month period. At times I would write pages and pages of passages that I found important to me. I was on an unknown quest, of knowledge of me.
One day, I decided to meditate. I found the experience relaxing, peaceful and loving. I instantly became hooked on it. I began a practice of morning and evening meditation. In late May I began to experience some minor but pleasant sensations. The first one was tickling of the crown, I thought it was fun and pleasant and so I bought a little book on meditation and found out about the chakras. So I learned I had a tickling crown chakra and I was happy I made some progress. Days later another sensation appeared, I felt as if a Q-tip was being gently inserted in the ear. I thought that was odd because I didn't read about an ear chakra, so I thought it might be related to the crown, or I was getting free ear cleaning services.
Each time I meditated whether morning or evening the two sensations became part of the norm. One afternoon I decided to add another meditation for the heck of it and that added an additional sensation to my other two. I began to feel tremendous pressure around my head, as if I was wearing a very tight helmet. I felt my face pressed together very tightly, and then the brow line began to pulse and loads of pressure began to build up there.I began to get worried. I didn't see anything like this in the little book of meditation. So I went on line and hooked up with a cyber meditation teacher. He asked me not to look up with my eyes closed, not to lie down, and not to count my breath during meditation that I was causing myself unnecessary headaches. Funny, I didn't have a headache, I took his advice.
In late June I was peacefully meditating when I heard, very clearly, my name called out by a male voice. That startled me and before I had a chance to react I began to hear a train like noise that increased in loudness as I was overcome by an incredible surge of energy that began somewhere in my body and it was going up. My entire back arched, I felt as if I had been touched by a high voltage electrical wire. As energy traveled through me the noise became very intense, it sounded like a freight train and when the energy was at its strongest point the noise changed to a horn sound. It left me vibrating; I felt like I was immersed in water and could not catch my breath, I was gasping. Still with my eyes closed, my entire face was illuminated in a white light. I felt glued to the chair, I was in shock, disoriented, dizzy and my heart was forcefully pounding. When I managed to open my eyes all I could say was "Oh my God, oh my God what just happened to me?" I was also shaking cold, very cold.
I sat there for a while and my body felt like I had been invaded by an entire ant colony, I could feel them everywhere. This experience took me to a place I have never been before, while the energy traveled up I found myself for a split second in another place, another plane. I saw something, but to date I still don't know what I saw. I was scared to death and it left me with an incredible headache.
This was the beginning for me. Days later I was meditating again and when I began to feel mild energy sensations and roaring noises I asked it to become louder and stronger, big mistake? I don't know why I did that, as scared as I was I did it. No sooner that I expressed what I wanted I had another big jolt similar to the original one, but this time the roar I heard turned to a very very loud Om sound, like the sound of the last note of an organ. Now THAT scared the living daylights out of me. Whatever happened to my peaceful meditation? I dare ask!! During the next two weeks I continued to have energy flowing through me, at different levels of intensity and I began to question my sanity. I remember fondly how one of day I sat to meditate and no sooner that my eyes closed my brow line was pulsing and I began to hear the roaring noise, I said "Oh no, not again" I opened my eyes and ran for my life.
I began to hear profound noises, and feeling prickling, my tailbone pulsing, and cool wind on my face. I became fearful of meditating, fearful of life, fearful of reality yet I had this peacefulness, this knowing that all was well. Many times I thought I was possessed, but I was convinced that I was not crazy, I knew what I was experiencing, it felt real and so it was not an illusion. I have never had any pain aside from the headache that I was left with the first time.
I went on to the web to look for answers. Finally I found the word Kundalini and the promises of answers. Kundalini Awakening System 1 answered my desperate email, I don't remember what I wrote them but I know I said I was scared to death. The first time I visited the site I was shocked to see so many happy people and feel so much Love. I kept thinking these people are insane, how can they be so happy to have train tracks running throughout their bodies, and this energy flow too? My questions were answered, my fears were calmed and I began to surrender to Kundalini.
My experience has continued nonstop. The train is still running but I am becoming a happy passenger. The energies travel through me twice a day, every day without fail sometimes mild but most are very strong. I continue to hear sounds of different things, sensations of balls traveling through my body, my appetite and sleep pattern has changed and an indescribable feeling of Love, I Love everything including this mosquito that just bit me. One thing that has not changed is my sense of humor, thank you very much I'd like to keep that.
The first thing our beloved Chrism told me was "No worries, my friend, all is well" and "Surrender". Those have been the most important words I have heard in this part of my existence. With those words in mind I keep receiving new experiences new phenomena and allowing the process of Kundalini to take its course. Some days the waves are more intense than others, new noises awake me in the night, and my daily experience just keeps growing.
Kundalini was my destiny; I didn't seek it, search for it or know about it. My plan is that someday I will be the loving, wonderful, caring teacher that Chrism has been to me, because indeed, all is well.
"No worries, my friend, all is well" and "Surrender". Those have been the most important words I have heard in this part of my existence. With those words in mind I keep receiving new experiences new phenomena and allowing the process of Kundalini to take its course.