My name is Rachel but everyone on this list knows me as Elektra.Fire. I am 32 years old and come from Romford in the lovely sunny isle of Great Britain (the sunny part was me being sarcastic by the way...hee hee). I began my life as a troubled rebel, never wanting to listen at school, never wanting to be restrained by religion, seen as a trouble maker by most teachers and adults. I was a free thinker.
1 girl in a family of 5 children, a family of atheists you could say, where much emphasis was put on education and social status and not spirituality. I was always suicidal as a child, I had a feeling of something being wrong with this reality, and wanted to leave it. I was very depressed and bullied a lot. I did not believe in God or life after death.
At the age of 17 I had my first realization, unconditional love. I understood that this was something to strive for, most humans were sick in my mind, full of hate and jealousy, so I strove to be different, and I strove to forgive and to love.
I got heavy into drugs and worked as a stripper and dj in London. Doesn't sound very spiritual but in many ways it was a time of much growth for me, stripping liberated me in many ways, taught me to love my body and helped me gain a lot of self respect and confidence.
In 1999 there was an eclipse, a full solar eclipse, a very strong one. At this time a girl came into my life who was bible bashing me and all my friends, my best friends girlfriend so she was hard to get away from. But she triggered something in me. I began to think about the concept of God a lot, angry at her for trying to push it on to me, I wanted to find my argument to disprove Jesus and God to her, or perhaps myself.
I remember sitting on the toilet one day, high as ever, when time stood still, I left my body and was in a holographic reality. I saw images, Jesus, aliens, heard information about the end of the world but a new beginning, I knew God was real for the first time. God communicated directly with me, I felt bliss like I had never felt before. I found God, my first awakening. I was frozen for 4 hours and yet my vision seemed to last only minutes. When it finished I fell to my knees, humbled in the presence of God, and I prayed, I cried tears and tears, I asked forgiveness for having turned my back, and God smiled and comforted me. Unconditional love beaming through.
My bible friend told me I had had a revelation. I never looked back, my whole life changed. I gave up drugs and began "Feeling" information. I was lead to a book of magic which told me about the magic of Adam and Eve, a gnostic book. It talked of Kundalini. The doorway back to Eden. I knew this was my path. Finally my whole life made sense.
I spent the next few years working on myself, getting more healthy, learning Reiki and healing, eating healthful foods. Praying and getting to know God. In 2004 I left to travel around the world with my husband. We went to the States to a wonderful lightworkers conference where we prayed and meditated for 5 days, then we travelled across the US, Hawaii, Australia, Indonesia, and into Asia. When we got to Thailand we didn't want to go home so we stayed a long while. Snakes had been turning up in my dreams and in reality - at my bungalow, in my room, under my feet. What were the snakes telling me I wondered? We had bought these beautiful Shakti wall hangings with two massive cobras on from Bali and carried them with us.
The messages were coming to me, Kundalini was beckoning. I opened a resort for travelers , a community service based resort for love and growth, it was a wonderful time. Much healing occurred for me and all the family there. A man turned up one day and told me he had heard I was giving powerful reiki attunements from a girl called Alice (who had experienced a very intense activation from her level 1), he had been studying the traditional reiki, the true reiki as practiced by Usui, one that contained many other aspects to it then we are taught in the west. He said he had come to exchange attunements with me and knowledge, he knew many things.
Whatever happened between us lead to my heart chakra bursting open, like I had never felt before in my life, radiating like a sun. So much love. I was getting ready for Shakti. I was ready for China now, next part of the puzzle. Right on time a little fairy turned up to guide me to the country of the Red Dragon with an offer of work. Seeing I had been living on my savings for nearly two years now a job offer was most welcome. I jumped at the chance knowing this was my destiny, I shipped my records over and Miss dj extraordinaire packed her bags and headed for Chengdu, hubby in toe.
As soon as I got to China I knew that I had to search for Kundalini, how to activate it, I got on line. I had never before heard of Shaktipat and yet there it was in bold letters on my google search engine page, staring me in the face. That’s for me, I know it.
I was guided to Chrism's group via John Rooke (or should I say Arch Angel John...hee hee) in April 2006. Chrism fitted all the criteria I had in my mind that a real teacher should have, as all of my true teachers had never charged money and were humble. So, I signed up and began practice right away. This is when Shakti gave me my name Elektra. She told me I would grow from the lamb, Rachel, to the fire, Elektra.Fire. I loved it.
At first I did not feel much, I had a lot of blockages to get through, many chakras were blocked. I began the task of forgiveness and recapitulation with more tenacity. Doing the 4 part meditation to really unblock the debris, it worked a treat and the first major stepping stone was the unblocking of my solar plexus. I woke up early to a coffee feeling in my stomach, something gave me a burst of energy, a glowing inside. Yep, I knew it, this practice is the real deal, it's working. It had only been 2 months. Then I began having many learning dreams, which seems to be the way I process the energy and blockages. Vivid dreams, facing my fears. A little vibration slowly began in my finger tips, wow, I thought, buzzing, I'm really activating!!! I was so excited when my first symptoms occurred. I told everyone I knew in China my finger was vibrating and made them touch my finger, they all thought I was crazy, but in a good way!
It was a slow steady pace for me, a few Shaktipats and not much in the way of feeling symptoms but a lot of emotional change was occurring. A lot of healing and rebalancing of my emotions took place. I began to feel much more energy and creativity. I began drawing and making music. I felt joyous.
There were harder moments such as the time I was enroute home to speak to my mum for the first time in 7 years. I was in Bangkok and I became really sick, feverish, sweating and aching all over. We had been concentrating on the base chakra (security) and all my fears began coming out. It was hard. I was sick as a dog. Then I recovered after I had faced my fears, blam, suddenly my fever disappeared and I recovered, like magic. I was well enough to take the plane back home to the UK to see my mum. When I arrived a lot more purging began, what a healing time. Seeing my mum was so healing, all the fear I had had, all the illusions, all the suffering. Gone. Thanks to my practice I had grown and forgiven. It was such a blessing. My mum and I are now getting along very well, happy to be in each other’s lives, she is even healing her relationship with her mother. So, you can see how each path touches another.
The next big thing for me was after returning home from Tibet where I had been dj’ing in Lhasa. I had visited some temples and been profoundly affected by the energy there. I felt totally normal on my return home, got back to my house, turned my computer on to check on the group, friends were over (they had come to smoke with me), as soon as I looked at the screen I began going in to waves of bliss, electricity shot up my spine on the right hand side, like an electric eel was in my back, bzzz bzzz, electric pulsing right from bottom to top of my head. It felt amazing. I was blissing out totally and my friends had no idea, they are used to me being a space cadet :) I excused myself and went into my bedroom to enjoy the energy. After a while they all left, that is when the big show began. I lay on my bed and felt so happy and grateful, my whole body felt like it changed from matter into cells and into light. I could not feel my body, just bliss, light and electrical current. I felt as if my ego had disappeared because I was not caring about self, I just felt bliss and ecstasy. I stayed like this for some time. I then came down but experienced electric pulses on and off for the next few days, it was quite wonderful. I look forward to the day I can feel that connection again!!!
Since then I have felt a gradual build up of energy and have become quite used to the buzzing that continues in the background everyday here and there. I do my practice every day and pray for my awakening, slow and steady, nice and gently. Every day I am discovering new and exciting things and feeling a deeper connection to my mother and father (God). This is really the most meaningful thing I have ever done and feel as though I have found my calling in life, my family (the group), my church. No religion, all religions, one energy, divine holy spirit. I have felt safe and nurtured the whole time. Never have I felt afraid. I know that this is an energy we are meant to be living with everyday and I feel sadness that we have been cut off for so long ( who didn't pay the bill ? ) Mother is gentle and loving but strict and guiding. She bosses me around and usually gets what she wants, I guess that’s what they mean by surrender...ha ha. I am looking forward to the unfoldment of my life in service to Mother and Father God and to my global family. Nothing has meant more to me. I have a flow of K now buzzing in the background, growing every week, every month. Safely, without damaging me, without hurting me, just loving me. Thankyou for listening, thank you for walking with me a while. God Bless. Elektra x x x
Shakti gave me my name Elektra. She told me I would grow from the lamb, Rachel, to the fire, Elektra.Fire. I loved it.