A year ago (August 2006) I joined a group "Kundalini-Awakening-Systems-1". I didn't know anything about Kundalini or what it was other than what I had read about it. I had been introduced to the name in a couple of books that I had read, but other than that I had never heard of it before. The way the books had identified with it made me not want to know a lot about it. I dismissed it and went on with my reading.
A while later my dad was diagnosed with cancer and my older sister and I along with my dad started looking up alternative healing methods and my method for the most part was the internet. As I began looking for alternative methods of healing I began running into web sites that somehow someway kept leading me to Kundalini and as before I quickly dismissed it because in my mind it wasn't something I wanted to mess with. The more I researched alternative healing the more I kept seeing Kundalini so instead of relying on just the books I looked up specifically Kundalini and once again what I read was frightening and I was even more determined not to know about it. Believe it or not the more research I did for my dad the more frequent I saw the word "Kundalini". One day I happened to stumble upon the group "Kundalini-Awakening-Systems-1" and I read the introduction and right then I knew that without doubt I was meant to learn about "K". I knew that God had continuously lead me to `K' wanting to me learn more about it, yet I had constantly kept dismissing it out of fear of what I had read. See when my dad was diagnosed I prayed for God to help me help dad. The thing is He was helping me not only help my dad, but myself as well, yet I didn't realize it at the time not even when I first found the group, our group that I was meant to learn about K, at least not until later.
Anyway, after reading the introduction I immediately without thought joined the group. Within days I realized that my destiny was with this group for better or for worse. I felt in my heart that God had a plan for me and it involved Chrism and all of you wonderful loving creatures. Instantly I was welcomed with open arms, no pressures, no questions asked, not demands, just love and compassion and from that point on friendships grew almost overnight and I felt peace and harmony. I began to learn about `K' and I learned about how it was a part of me that I shouldn't be afraid of it, not I didn't dismiss the fear instantly, but with the love and understanding and the knowledge from Chrism and group my fear lessoned and I participated in my first Shaktipat!
Even though my dad still passed away as it was God's plan to take him home this past November, I realized that it helped me help him make that transition. I have seen myself grow in ways I never knew possible, I have seen myself forgive things I didn't realized I was still holding on to, I have learned to forgive someone almost as quickly as I condemn them, I have learned patience, trust where I thought I would never have it, I have learned to run towards a situation and offer service rather than run away not looking back. I have learned to be thankful and give gratitude even for those things that are dim and bleak. I have learned so many things about myself, about others, about life - I can't begin to ever list them all. Most importantly I have grown closer to my Lord God and to my Lord Jesus Christ and I am slowly transitioning into enlightenment. I have gained so many friendships that will last a life time. I have learned to TRUST myself and to surrender, let go of my ego, not get rid of, but put it aside. I have seen others grow with me and change with me!
I have had some pretty awesome experiences that I give gratitude for even today! I have been able to share them even when those closest to me didn't understand or made fun of me!
My point is I have seen a big difference my life and this group has been a really big part of it. Thank you Chrism and thank you all my dear friends for your love and support, your encouragement and your truthfulness! Thank you Chrism for this group, for sharing with all of us your knowledge and your experiences and for allowing us to be able to able to experience these wonderful and glorious, blissful experiences with minimal unpleasant experiences by introducing us to the practice and the safeties and once again through your own experiences.
Thank you all for! Thank you to all of the new people as well, I look forward in sharing new things with all of you!
With love, Katherine
I have learned to TRUST myself and to surrender, let go of my ego, not get rid of, but put it aside. I have seen others grow with me and change with me!