I joined the KAS-1 group at the end of March 2007, so relatively a short time ago. I had heard of Kundalini but had no real understanding of it and what little I knew was nothing like what it has turned out to be! I thought it just gave you more energy to do the stuff in your daily life! Like a pep pill. Wrong! So much more than that.
As a child, I had vague ideas of spirituality which had nothing to do with the fundamentalist church I was made to go to. There were glimmerings of this spirituality I didn't even know had a name, now I know as the Holy Ghost presence. But as a rule, the church had nothing to do with it. Music did, nature did, art did and those I got anywhere. But my parents had not the least understanding of this. They were too busy with life in survival mode as it was. My father had mental problems, my youngest brother was born with oxygen deficiency so was mentally handicapped, we were quite poor. No room for spiritual things other than church on Sunday which was NOT my cup of tea. This was an oppressive and abusive environment. When I left home at 19 to live in the dorm at college, freedom was mine at last. I could finally discover who I was. And did, though not in the most wholesome ways. But I outgrew that, too. I think I knew even then I was an empath though it has gotten stronger over the years. Working at a hospital was very interesting! I met my first love and we were together 5 yrs. But it seemed to be going nowhere and he didn't even want to talk about the M word (marriage). I left him, with hugely mixed feelings but soon met up with an old friend from High School (I'd never felt romantic feelings for him then, but did now!) I married him a little over a year after meeting up with him again. Our marriage was to be short, though, as he died at 26 in a military airplane crash, only 1 yr. and 9 mos. after marriage (no children, luckily!). All ideas of religion, and for a time even God, were extinguished. I was a lost soul for about 8 yrs. In my 30's, I moved to Phoenix and soon disentangled myself from a co-dependent relationship. I began to find 'me', again, this time more mature and wide open to lots of things. At this time, I discovered I had something special with my hands though didn't know what or how to use that. I got energy in them and they heated up. I wasn't able to find out enough to put me on that path to being a healer though it is something that has been in me urging me to do something. I became very interested in things that most consider New Age. Very into it. I couldn't read enough about it all. Then came the age of computers and internet and you couldn't get me off the thing. A hungry mind in search of...something? I didn't know what, exactly. In this time, I met my husband-to-be. He was dismissive of my interest in the spiritual vs. religious. So that went by the wayside and we concentrated on the things we did have in common, like art, music, nature, quite a few other things. Five years later, we got married and things settled down, we had our daughter. But about 3 yrs. ago, the old urgings came back...seek, seek, seek! So in what little spare time I had, I was looking at groups involved in the spiritual, mostly New Age stuff. Some complete baloney but some enough to pique my interest. I got into meditation locally, which I had never done and found it took me somewhere I'd never imagined! On the internet, I got into Ascension theories, discussions on Reiki (I never attuned but thought I might go that way). From that group I heard about Sarita's dream group and I was very curious to interpret my very vivid and strange dreams. I learned a lot from the people at her site. Then some of them migrated over to this K site and I was asked to join so thought what the heck, why not...see what's going on. So I did and wow, what I've discovered since then! Dreams pointed to Kundalini. I started having sensations as others talked about their experiences. Soon the buzzing of energy up my back with the occasional energy egg and the tingles on top of my head became regular events, especially when logged on to the KAS-1 group. I've really become aware of my chakras, which is also new for me. How all I've been through in my life has effected my arrival at this moment, I don't know but I do feel it lead me here and that I'm supposed to be here. I don't go trolling the web for spirituality anymore. I've found a lot with chrism's group and his guidance and now, more than ever, I see what's inside me. It was there all along, why didn't I see/hear/feel it? And I'm only just starting. I know I've only dipped my little toe in the waters of K. I have a long way to go but I'm excited about the journey and looking forward to what is to come.
Phoenix, Arizona US
I started having sensations as others talked about their experiences.
Soon the buzzing of energy up my back with the occasional energy egg
and the tingles on top of my head became regular events, especially
when logged onto the KAS-1 group.