Please learn to be patient. One doesn't destroy the doors to heaven merely to gain entrance. Practice the safeties in the format they are given. Some will receive it without effort or knowledge, some will receive it after Shaktipat, and some will receive it after conditioning and then the Shaktipat or by merely doing the conditioning exercises. Or any number of variables that correspond to the individual Karma and mission in life. As you are here in this group though you are already very close. So go slow and be thorough in your practice and the diligence of the practice.
Everyone is different and this isn't a race. I do understand the inner drive to experience the Kundalini and yes this can be very strong. Let this drive you to condition and give your entire being into this journey. Let it sculpt you into a person of great humbleness and strength of love and endurance, integrity and honesty, patience and purity, forgiveness and compassion and piety towards "that which is all". Let this drive guide you towards that which is beyond words.
This is the Kundalini.
Kundalini is very different as it lasts for the rest of the person’s life and isn't prone towards commercial interests. One doesn't buy and sell Kundalini no more than one would buy and sell God.
So practice the safeties and develop an inner patience and allow this patience to guide you in your journey towards the Kundalini. - blessings- chrism
One doesn't buy and sell Kundalini no more than one would buy and sell God.