OH!!! UGH!! OH! (pant pant) UH OOHH!!! Then silence except for some strangled noises as the back arches and the energy shoots out the top of the skull. Ecstacyyyyyyyy!!! At one with all creation. At one with GOD with LOVE with LIFE and WITH EVERYTHING!!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!
This is how a sudden expression of Kundalini can feel though words will never approach it.
Then you may hear your name being called when nobody is in the room except you. Or you may see the floating lights that nobody sees except you. It’s easy to read of these experiences not so easy to experience them.
Thus begins the breakdown of a person’s basic reality. The laws of science go flying out the window as the room is filled with the sounds of a million crickets or bees that are humming everywhere but there are no crickets to be seen and no bees to be found and yet there is that humming and chirping! And let’s not forget the flute players! Hi guys!
The dreams are filled with snakes and spiders and people with glowing blue eyes. "YIKES" Disembodied eyes are floating around and somehow the smell of incense and roses has come into your home and you’re not burning it! Yep the deep end has come and you’re swimming in it!
And now fear has begun to creep more expressively into your thoughts.
"Am I nuts? Did I really see that dancing blue girl and did she really change into a snake and go into my closet? I will NEVER go into that closet to find out!"
Now the consciousness starts to scatter as fear and doubt of mental stability fall away into a knowing that reality has gone somewhere else.
A feeling you are in trouble ticks away in what is left of your mind.
Paranoia is next on the menu as the kidneys expand and the adrenals pump out the epinephrine. Fighting and fleeing only works when it isn’t internal to the body.
"Who said that?" "What?" "Oh... that was me. Oh Shit!" "I am still me...I am still me...I am still meee... (insert theme from twilight zone here)
"OK OK THAT was me. But I know "they’re" listening to me! Whoever they are!"
"I am nuts?! Ahhhh! Yippeeee! Except.....except.... I don’t really...feel nuts. I feel like the same old me. This can’t be a hangover as I haven’t seen "HER" for about six months. She of the double margarita's.
But I MUST BE. But it doesn’t feel like I am. But I cannot be seeing these...these...things!"
And so it goes for those of us who do not know about Kundalini or the awakening process. Sometimes years can go by and many stays at the local psyche ward and even then the symptoms are merely put on hold or become twisted into worse forms than before. Drugs can do that with Kundalini.
For those of you searching for this expression these scenarios may occur but the difference is the fear will not be so complete. I or someone else who knows will be here for you, and your journey will be understood. Much of the fear is about not knowing what is going on. So no worries! - blessings - chrism
For those of you searching for this expression these scenarios may occur...